Ele Jou: seis, a sunday

bathroom view


cantilever disbeliever!


star gate


azure transom


cross-hatched hole


almost japanese


out of the blue, i developed a rather severe case of VERTIGO.
woke up several nights ago and the room was spinning wildly.
no alcohol imbibed in over nine years so i ruled out drunkenness.

i groped my way to the toilet by holding onto the walls and
nearly fell over just trying to pee. something like a gyroscope
going off course, PROFOUND DIZZINESS.
but a surprising lack of nausea, no headache, no earache.
a little like suddenly being on another PLANET where the
gravitational forces are unfamiliar and exerting themselves
from more than one direction at once.

when i am NOT able to operate habitually, as a result of some
physical challenge, my patterns become ACUTELY obvious.
needing to keep my head in a more-or-less fixed position, for instance,
suddenly i'm aware of how much, how constantly, i move my head -
all the damn time! and i must look like a dashboard doll.
listening to music is almost impossible without moving my head.
moving the rest of my body is almost impossible without moving my head.
and NOT moving my head makes me feel like a have a neck injury
or like i am a very contracted person or a person under heavy sedation.

sigh.

in fact, i am a person with Benign Positional Vertigo and i am about
to try a Modified Epley's Maneuver for Self-Treatment of BPV.
wish me luck...

meanwhile,
there are smells of sunday all over this town.
i took a VERY SLOW walk through and around my neighborhood
(Playa Sur) this afternoon and must have seen 15 extended families
in various stages of dinner: about to eat, eating or just having finished.
mainly, a lot of lovely wafts of home-cooking permeated the atmosphere
and made my nose happy.

i don't have to turn my head to smell at all..